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From the east side of Detroit, this is Corner to Corner. I’m Julian Ames.
I say it out loud to my windshield at a quarter to four on a Saturday, sitting in my car in front of Freeman’s Spokes on Mack Avenue, with the engine off and nothing recording. Old habit. When I’m nervous I do my intro. My producer says it’s the only time my voice drops back to the west side, Russell Woods and my grandmother’s porch, before twenty years of public radio sanded it down.
The segment aired three weeks ago. Seven minutes and forty seconds on a Thursday morning, a retired welder who runs a free bike shop out of a storefront that used to be a shoe repair, teaching the neighborhood how to fix their own rides. Folks earn a bike with six Saturdays of volunteer hours, and one of them is a sixty-eight-year-old woman who rides to Eastern Market every week. It was a good piece. We got more listener mail on it than anything since the water shutoffs.
And I’ve thought about Otis Freeman every single day since, which is not something I can put on air.
The shop’s dark in front. The hand-painted sign on the window says OPEN SAT 10 TO 2 and under it, smaller, YOU BREAK IT WE TEACH YOU. I get my bike out of the trunk. It’s an old steel Raleigh I’ve had since grad school in Chicago, and the back wheel is so warped it rubs the brake on every turn. I wheel it to the side door like Otis told me on the phone, and before I can knock, it opens.
“Mr. Radio,” Otis says. “You came.”
“I said I would.”
“Folks say a lot of things.” He looks at the wheel and makes a face like it insulted his mother. “Lord. What you do to that?”
“Hit a pothole on Grand River.”
“That pothole hit you.” He steps back to let me in. “Come on. I’ma teach you to true a wheel, and you gon’ do it yourself, and I ain’t touching it but to point.”
On air I called him barrel-chested, and my producer cut it, said it sounded like I was describing a whiskey. He walks ahead of me between the hanging bikes, not tall but wide, carrying thirty-one years of the Jefferson plant line in his shoulders and sixty-one years of good cooking in his middle, his reading glasses swinging on a cord over a canvas apron full of tools. When he laughs it starts somewhere under the apron and takes a while to reach his white beard.
The shop smells like chain grease and coffee. Bikes hang from hooks in the ceiling like sides of beef. There’s a radio by the workbench playing the station, my station, a jazz show I don’t host, turned low.
He clamps my back wheel in the truing stand and hands me a spoke wrench.
“Spin it,” he says.
I spin it. The rim wobbles past the little calipers like a drunk walking a line.
“See where it kisses? Right there. That’s where it’s pulling left. So you go to the spokes on the left side, right there, and you let ’em out a little. Quarter turn. Then you go to the right side and you bring ’em in a quarter. You don’t crank on it. You ask it.”
“Ask it.”
“Every spoke on that wheel is holding the same as the others or it ain’t true. You yank on one, you throw off all of ’em.” He stands behind me and reaches round, his chest against my shoulder, and puts his big burnt fingers over mine on the wrench. “Like this. Easy.”
I can feel his breath on my ear. I can smell him, shop soap and chain grease. I turn the wrench a quarter turn and completely forget which direction I’m turning it.
“Other way,” Otis says, very close to my ear.
“Right.”
“You good?”
“I’m good.”
“You sure? Your hand shaking, Mr. Radio.”
“It’s Julian,” I say. “You called me Julian on the phone.”
“On the phone I couldn’t see your face.” He takes his hand off mine and steps back, and I’m sorry immediately. “Spin it again.”
It takes me almost an hour. He makes me do every spoke myself, a quarter turn at a time, and he never once takes the wrench off me, just points and says left and ease up and that’s it. By the time the rim spins straight between the calipers without a whisper, the window’s gone dark blue and the streetlights are on along Mack, and my shoulders hurt from hunching.
“It’s straight,” I say, and I sound so surprised he laughs.
“Course it’s straight,” Otis says. “You did that.”
“You did that.”
“I pointed.” He takes the wheel out of the stand and spins it in his hands, holding it up to the light. “That’s true, Julian. That’s a true wheel. You came all the way out here to learn that?”
I put the spoke wrench down on the bench very carefully.
“No,” I say.
He doesn’t say anything for a while. The radio’s still going. Somebody on the jazz show is playing Yusef Lateef.
“Segment ran three weeks ago,” he says finally. “That’s done. I signed your little paper. I don’t owe you nothing and you don’t owe me nothing. So whatever you came to say, you can say it like a grown man and I’ma answer you the same.”
“I came because I haven’t stopped thinking about you.” My voice is doing the thing, dropping. I let it. “I sat in your shop for four hours with a microphone and watched you teach a sixty-eight-year-old woman to fix a derailleur and I couldn’t concentrate on my questions. My producer asked me if I was sick. I wasn’t going to say anything while the piece was still in the edit. Now it’s out. So. I’d like to take you to dinner, Otis. And I’d like, after dinner, to come back here, if you want that.”
He looks at me over the reading glasses for a long time. Then he takes them off and lets them fall on their cord.
“Coney on Gratiot,” he says. “I’m paying. Then you come back upstairs with me and I’ma ask you that again, and you better say yes so I can hear it.”
We eat chili dogs at the counter of a Coney on Gratiot with the fluorescent lights buzzing, and he tells me about the plant, thirty-one years, the night shift, his late mother’s house on Hurlbut, and the first bike he ever fixed, a neighbor’s, with a coat-hanger and a borrowed wrench, the summer the plant laid everybody off for six weeks. I ask him why he does it, the shop, the free Saturdays, and he wipes mustard off his thumb and thinks about it a long time.
“Thirty-one years I built cars I couldn’t afford,” he says. “Every man on my line, same. Then they closed half the line and we all went home and sat there. Man down the street from me lost his job ’cause he couldn’t get to the new one, no car, bus came twice an hour. A bike would’ve fixed that. A forty-dollar bike.” He shrugs. “So now folks can get to work. And they know how to fix it theyself, so they ain’t got to come back to me every time. That’s the part I like.”
“You like it when they don’t need you?”
“I like it when they come back anyhow,” he says, and looks at me.
I tell him about Chicago, and coming home, and the first time my grandmother heard me on the radio and called the station to complain that I sounded like a white man reading the weather. He laughs so hard the cook looks over.
When we walk back to the shop it’s cold enough to see our breath. He unlocks the side door and holds it for me and doesn’t turn on the light.
“Upstairs,” he says. “And Julian. I’m asking. You want this?”
“Yes,” I say. “Yes, Otis. I want it.”
“Then say the word you gon’ use if you don’t.”
“Brake,” I say, and he laughs again, low.
“Brake. Okay, Mr. Radio. Okay.”
His apartment is neat as a toolbox, and the bedroom at the back has a big low bed and a window on the dark roofs of the east side. In the bedroom doorway he kisses me, finally, and a sound comes out of me I would never let near a microphone.
He kisses heavy and slow, one broad hand flat on my back and the other on my jaw, his beard rough against my mouth. I get my hands on his belly through his shirt, the soft thick weight of it, and he rumbles against my lips. We undress each other a piece at a time. Under the shirt he’s soft over solid, grey hair scattered across his chest, his forearms spotted with old welding burns like somebody flicked paint at him. His cock is already half hard and heavy on his thigh, thick and dark. My hands won’t leave him alone.
“Lay down with me,” he says.
We lie down on our sides on the big bed, head to foot, and I take him in my mouth just as he takes me in his.
It’s almost too much. His mouth is hot and slow and patient, the same way he turns a spoke wrench. I suck him down as deep as I can manage and feel him swell and harden on my tongue, heavy, salty, and he groans low with his mouth full of me and the sound runs straight up my spine. His hand grips my thigh. My hand grips his ass. We find a rhythm without saying anything, rocking into each other’s mouths, and for a long while the only sounds are our mouths and the radiator knocking under the window.
He lets me go for a second and licks down the inside of my thigh, slow, then back up, and takes my balls in his mouth one at a time, and I have to stop sucking him just to breathe.
“Don’t quit on me,” he says, muffled. “Put it back in your mouth, Mr. Radio. Show me what that mouth do when it ain’t talking.”
I put it back. I take him deep this time, as far as I can, until he’s in my throat, and keep him there and swallow, and he says “Shit, Julian,” loud enough the neighbors could hear, and his hips jerk. I pull back and suck just the head, hard, working it with my tongue, tasting him leak, and his thigh shakes against my cheek.
He pulls off first, breathing hard. “Julian,” he says against my thigh. “You keep doing that, we ain’t getting to the rest.”
I let him slide from my mouth. “What’s the rest?”
“You know what the rest is.” His hand slides back between my cheeks, a fingertip pressing, asking. “You want me in you?”
“Yes. God, yes.”
“Hold on, then.”
He gets up and goes to the bathroom and comes back with a bottle of water-based lube from the cabinet. He kneels up on the bed behind me where I’m lying on my side, and pours some into his hand and warms it, and then his fingers are on me, slick and blunt and careful.
“Breathe,” he says. “Easy. Like the wheel. Little at a time.”
He opens me up slowly. One thick finger, then two, turning and pressing and stroking, never hurrying, until I’m grinding back on his hand and making noises into his pillow, high and wrecked, nothing like my radio voice. When he finds the spot, I gasp and my whole body jerks, and he holds it there and rubs until my cock is leaking onto the sheet.
“Yeah,” he says. “Like that. Just like that.”
He leans down while his fingers keep working and kisses the curve of my thigh, then bites it, gentle, and drags his beard over the spot so I jump.
“You so wet for me now,” he says. “Listen at that. You hear that? That’s you, opening up. That’s you wanting it.”
“I want it,” I say into the pillow. “I’ve wanted it since the interview. Then you handed me a wrench and it got worse.”
“Since I handed you a wrench.” He laughs, low and pleased, and crooks his fingers again. “Man. Should’ve handed you one sooner.”
“Otis. Please.”
“Please what, Mr. Radio?”
“Please fuck me.”
“Bet,” he says, and I laugh, helplessly, and then stop laughing.
He doesn’t lie down behind me. He stays up on his knees, big and broad above me, and takes my top knee in his hand and draws it up toward my chest, so I’m curled on my side and wide open to him. He shuffles in close, his knees snug behind my thighs, and I feel the thick head of him slick against me.
“Turn your head,” he says. “I want your face.”
I twist and look back over my shoulder at him, kneeling over me in the dark, his belly heavy, his eyes fixed on me, and he pushes in.
It’s a lot. He’s thick and the angle is steep, and I gasp and grab the sheet and hold my breath, and he stops right there with just the head in, holding my knee, rubbing his thumb back and forth over my hip.
“Breathe, baby. You okay?”
“Yes. Give me a second. Yes.”
He gives me a second. Then he gives me more, slowly, a little and a breath and a little more, until his hips are snug against my ass and he’s all the way in me and I’m shaking and so full I can’t think. He stays up on his knees above me, one hand holding my knee up and the other spread on my hip.
“You took all of me,” he says, low. “How that feel?”
“Like there ain’t room in me for nothing else,” I say, and hear my grandmother’s porch in it. “Move. Please. Move.”
He moves.
“Brake still the word?” he says, just before.
“Brake’s the word. I’m not using it.”
Slow at first, long careful strokes, pulling nearly out and sinking back in, and every one of them drags right over the spot because of the angle and the way he’s holding me. I’m moaning on every stroke. I can’t stop and I don’t try. He holds my knee up higher, opening me more, and the next thrust goes so deep I cry out loud.
“There go that voice,” Otis says. “Let me hear it.”
“Don’t hold back,” I say. “Otis. Don’t you hold back.”
I reach back and grab his thigh, the big hard muscle of it flexing under my hand every time he drives in, and pull him into me, and he grunts and gives me what I’m pulling for.
“You like that,” he says. “You like getting it like this. All curled up and opened up for me.”
“I love it. Lord, I love it. You’re so deep. God, you’re thick, Otis, I can’t think.”
“That’s right. That’s all you, baby. All yours. Now say it louder, baby. Say it like it’s going out live.”
“I love your cock in me,” I say, loud, and I don’t care who out on the avenue hears it.
He gives me more. He’s kneeling over me with his whole weight in his hips, driving in deep and steady, and the bed rocks under us and bangs the wall. His belly slaps against my ass on every stroke. Sweat drips from his chest onto my side. He’s grunting with every thrust, deep rough sounds, and talking to me, low and filthy, in a voice that’s nothing like the one he uses in the shop.
“Damn, the way you take me. The way you open up for me. Thirty-one years of grinding on steel and ain’t nothing ever felt like this. You feel so good, baby. You feel so good. Tell me you want it.”
“I want it. I want it. Don’t stop. Please. Right there. Right there, Otis.”
“Right here?” He grinds deep and holds it, and my whole body locks up.
“Yes. Yes. God.”
He holds my knee pinned to my chest and fucks me deeper, and every stroke hits that same place, again and again, true as a wheel, and the pressure builds up in me so fast and so deep I can’t tell where it starts. My cock is bobbing against my belly with every thrust, untouched, leaking, aching.
“I’m going to come,” I gasp. “Otis. I’m going to come and you’re not even touching me.”
“I’m touching you,” he says roughly. “I’m all up in you. Come on, baby. Come on, Julian. Let me see it.”
I come so hard I shout. It rips through me from somewhere deep inside, my whole body seizing around his cock, my own spurting hot across my stomach and the sheet in long helpless pulses while I shake and cry out his name. Otis groans long and low through his teeth and keeps moving through it, slower, until I’m twitching and wrung out and fluttering around him.
“Now you,” I manage. “Come in me, Otis. I want it.”
He lets go of my knee and grabs my hip with both hands and gives me a handful of hard deep strokes, and on the last one he holds there, deep as he can get, and comes with a long rumbling groan that I feel more than hear, his cock pulsing inside me, his forehead dropping against my shoulder.
We stay like that a while, stuck together and breathing. The radiator knocks. A car goes by down on Mack with its bass up, and the window rattles.
He gets a warm washcloth after a while and cleans me up as patient as he was with the wheel, then lies down beside me, face to face this time, and pulls the blanket over us both. His hand rests on my hip. I can feel his heart going down slow.
“You gon’ put this on the radio?” he says.
“God, no.”
“Good. ‘Cause I’m not signing another one of them little papers.”
I laugh into his chest. He smells like shop soap and me. Outside, somewhere toward the river, a train horn blows long and low and fades.
“You can come back next Saturday,” he says. “Bring the front wheel. That one’s just as bad.”
“How do you know?”
“I looked at it while you was hunched over the back one.” He yawns hugely. “I ain’t touched it. You gon’ do that one yourself too.”
Monday morning the red light goes on in Studio B and I lean into the microphone.
From the east side of Detroit, this is Corner to Corner. I’m Julian Ames. A few weeks ago we brought you a story about a bike shop on Mack Avenue, and a lot of you wrote in. One of you asked if I ever went back. I did, on Saturday, with a bad wheel. Here is what he told me.
I look down at the script, where I’ve written it in pencil in my own hand.
He said, “Every spoke on a wheel is holding the same as the others, or it ain’t true.” I’ve been thinking about that all weekend.
My producer, on the other side of the glass, raises one eyebrow at me. I keep my voice level and my face straight and I go to the music.
Fiction by the Woolnight editorial team. AI-assisted drafting; reviewed and edited by humans before publication.